Good morning readers ! First off , I’d like to apologize for going MIA . The past few months have been rough to say the least . My positive outlook , joy and strength were replaced with anger , depression and feeling lost . I basically shut down . My husband has hounded me so many times to write again , but I felt as though I had nothing to share . I was mad at everyone - pushed people away and felt as though I had no purpose . I felt like I was failing - as a mother , a wife and friend . Basically , I was just down right  hateful.  Grief . It comes in many forms . Most people think it’s tears - sadness and a broken heart . That is just the face of grief .. behind the tear filled eyes is a whole other dimension . It’s dark and not pleasant . It’s a scary place to be . It’s a place that no one wants to see - or let alone , feel. I think of it as being lost at sea - thrown around by waves of sadness and fear . You can’t see the light or joy . You feel lost and alone . You fe